What shall it be today? Skeptical, doubtful, distrustful, suspicious?

I don’t have a particular affinity for any of those words. I’d, in fact, like to ban them from my existence. I don’t like their definition, their sound or their connotation. Above all, I really hate it when my mind wanders into the places those words occupy.

It is my nature to trust. I have an idealistic view of others…I tend to believe that most people operate with basically the same moral compass as I do. I have high expectations, and it is always a bitter disappointment when they are not met.

If it is, in fact, my nature to trust, then why does my mind wander into those dank, shadowy, unpleasant places where there is no trust? Why is it there now?

Why is it there now? Have I truly been given a reason, or has my uber-awareness distorted reality?

This remains to be seen.