Let’s see…what all do I have here?

• Job? Check.
• Car? Check. A new one, even.
• Roof over my head, food in the fridge, a little money in the bank? Got it.
• Looks? Yep.
• Smarts? That too.
• Hobbies? Several.
• Great friends? Without a doubt.
• That one special person to share it all with? OK, here we hit a wall.

I am just so incredibly ready for that to happen in my life. I don’t think I’ve ever been more ready to meet a wonderful man, have a wonderful relationship, a wonderful marriage and a family. I want it so much that it makes my nose sting.

That leads me to ask myself (or anyone else who wants to toss out an idea) why I’m hung up on someone who doesn’t feel the same, and why I seemingly sabotage the genuine efforts of men who are interested? Most would agree that it doesn’t make any sense. I’m beginning to question if anything really does.

So, how now? Do I take a break from it all, despite the loneliness I’m feeling, or do I continue trudging along, trying to date even though my heart isn’t really in it? Quite honestly neither option is particularly appealing, but they are nonetheless the ones I’m left with.

Eenie meenie miney mo…