Defined, according to dictionary.com, as:

One that undergoes frequent abrupt shifts or reversals, as of opinion or emotion; a vacillator.

See also: sucker

Joined the girls again for hockey practice Wednesday night, and my butt is sore today. Sore, but unlike last time, not bruised. I even managed to spend most of the evening on my skates and upright. My only big fall wasn’t even my fault…the coach knocked me over!

I had a terrific time at this practice, and I didn’t leave feeling like I’d had the s*it kicked out of me. Think I’m going to formally join up and start going every Wednesday…

Reading this morning’s Quote of the Day reminds me of so many of the profiles I read on the dating sites…

“Typos are very important to all written form. It gives the reader something to look for so they aren’t distracted by the total lack of content in your writing.” ~Randy K. Milholland

“The government’s view of the economy could be summed up in a few short phrases: If it moves, tax it. If it keeps moving, regulate it. And if it stops moving, subsidize it.”

~Ronald Reagan

OK, this is obviously NOT me…but I did take the picture. This portrait of Sheila was done about four years ago when I was first getting started in photography.

We all know that my love life is in a constant state of turmoil. Now I’m starting to feel the pangs of a career crisis as well.

I’m an insurance adjuster, an unlikely career I fell into after graduating from college with nebulous plans for the future. I did well and even enjoyed my work for the first few years. I don’t enjoy my work anymore, and when I don’t like something I cease to be good at it. Like a bride who got married way too young, I’m starting to wonder if there’s not something more out there.

For several years I’ve kicked around the idea of law school – but I fear that would end up being not a great deal different than what I’m already doing. Do I really want to add another $50,000 to my student loan debt at this point in my life?

The only thing I’ve done that has given me a rush is photography. Georgia State has an MFA program…by the deadline next January I could have a portfolio put together for an application. But really…am I kidding myself? Do I have the creative energy to get through a master’s degree? Am I good enough to even get in?

Scary thoughts. But so is the idea of handling claims for the rest of my life…

I’m sorry that I don’t write about shiny-happy things all the time.

I’m sorry that I don’t feel shiny-happy all the time.

I will put things behind me when they are ready to go there.
I’m sorry if that’s not happening at your pace.

If anyone doesn’t like what they read here, please accept my invitation to not come around.

Just thinking about you.

It was great to see you yesterday…really nice.  While I was in the car on the way to meet you it struck me that it might be a little awkward, considering our conversation on Thursday evening.  

But it wasn’t.  At least not on my part, or seemingly yours either.  The hug you gave me was strong and sincere, and the conversation came easily.  Had you not had a meeting we might have talked all morning.

You have so much going on right now, and I hate that what happened has generated so much negative energy. Your work, your health…that was truly the very last thing that you needed at this moment.  I hope that this situation, at least, resolves itself very soon.  

I expected to get a hug from you when we parted ways, but I didn’t expect you to squeeze my hand and hold on for a moment.  Your hand was warm, and you promised to be in touch.  I hope so.

Don’t make someone your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.

OK, I didn’t get tagged, but I’m doing this anyway…

4 Jobs I’ve had

• lifeguard
• nurses’ aide
• pizza cook
• pharmacy tech

4 Movies I’d watch over and over:

• Top Gun
• Pearl Harbor
• Crimson Tide
• Forrest Gump

4 Places in the US that I like:

• Oregon coast
• the Rockies
• Florida
• Kentucky

4 Vacations:

• Spain
• Florida
• Bahamas
• Skiing in Colorado

4 TV shows:

• Law & Order – all flavors
• NYPD Blue
• CSI
• JAG reruns

4 Favorite dishes:

• Pepperoni Lovers on thin crust
• Anything dessert
• Anything Mexican
• Anything pasta

4 Places I’d rather be:

• Home in bed – that’s all I have to say about that
• On a warm beach – anywhere – with a good book
• In a photo studio working on that project I’ve had in mind for three years
• In law or photography school

4 Sites I visit daily:

• More dating sites than I care to admit
• cnn.com
• ajc.com
• usatoday.com

So there you have it…another little chunk of my life…please be kind.